A post for ['M.S.D' ]-
I'm really sorry. but i feel it's time to end everything.
i cannot continue these, as it's not right.
i don't want to get hurt further, or worst still, fall deeper for you.
the hurt than, will be much more unbearable,
& i'm afraid i won't be able to take it.
Afterall, i have to come to a decision, & i think i've made the right one.
It's no point waiting for the impossible.
maybe it's really true that it isn't worth for me to carry on waiting.
i don't gain anything, & it all seems like i'm always the one giving in.
it takes two hands to clap, but now, it's only one sided.
i believed again & agian that things will eventually change for the better.
but, it was all just false hope. it's all just my part of thinking.
nothing is really & actually coming true. nothing.
i feel that what you're doing & the way you're treating me is very unfair.
you care for the sake of caring. you don't know how i actually & really feel.
what you're doing now is bad enough. whenever there's her, there won't be me.
& whenever there's me, there won't be her.
do you even know that what you're doing is so wrong & that you're actually hurting us deep
down inside ? you might not feel that way, as sometimes we don't tell you.
you don't even bother to find out our feelings anyway.
maybe you should try putting yourself in the position you're treating us now.
you'll be able to realise, trust me.
moreever, i told you she's my friend. there's no way i'm gonna lose this friendship with
her. i've lost so many things becos of you, & i don't want that to ever happen agian.
i used to think that all is worth it as i'm sure you'll be w me someday.
but to me now, it's all bullshit!
it's quite stupid of me to actually fall for you & believe your words,
but i didn't regret one bit.
yes, the life time promises we made to each other before ? i didn't forget.
i never will. but i find that it's time for me to give up.
there really isn't a point waiting any longer. i don't wanna be a fool anymore.
i'm really gaining nothing.
maybe we should just go our seperate ways, & lead our own lifes.
you lead yours, & i lead mine.
( i don't know if you'll read this, but i hope you'll understand)
This is a better way, i guess.
Loves ~
